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Archive of the posts written by author: Leeannecastro.
Oct
24

The honeymoon phase

It’s been three incredibly short weeks since my husband came home. Twenty four days, to be exact, of intense emotion, love, laughter, excitement, and adjustment. At first I vacillated wildly back and forth between feeling like he’d never left and completely forgetting how…

Oct
6

Hurry up and wait already

Homecoming day was a ton of waiting followed by a hurried blur. I live almost 2 hours from where they were holding it and I was terrified of getting stuck in traffic and missing it so I went up early and ran some…

Sep
25

Why I stand

I was five years old when my parents moved here from South Africa during the height of Aparthied. As a kid I was taught the pledge of allegiance, I sang the national anthem with my hand over my heart, I learned about American…

Sep
17

Big deep breath

I can breathe again. I didn’t realize how long I had been holding my breath but now that I have let it out I can see how long it was held. Today the other half of my heart has returned to US soil.…

Sep
13

Multitasking momma

Can anyone get through life without multitasking these days? I do it so much that it feels weird when I do a single thing by itself. When I work out, I catch up on my tv shows. Making dinner means emptying the dishwasher.…

Sep
6

Belonging

Several years ago my husband and I moved out to the middle of nowhere and forever changed our lives. It started innocently enough, we lived in the suburbs of Denver and we thought that before our son started school would be a good…

Sep
3

Happy anniversary!

Today I celebrate my 12th wedding anniversary without my husband, but luckily I don’t celebrate it alone. I have two dates this time around. Last year Rick was able to come home from his pre-mobilization training for a couple days and we took…

Aug
26

The summit

In the beginning of deployment you count the days. You say to yourself “I can’t believe it’s been 26 days since I hugged him” or “43 days ago he was here, on the couch, holding my hand”. Those early days tick by so…

Aug
20

Truth

Walk a mile in my shoes. Hell, walk 5 feet and you will see the struggle I endure every day. They call me strong, they call me tough. They see the calm exterior and the smile on my face. But inside I may…

Aug
9

Reintegration

The other day someone asked me if things would “go back to normal” once my husband got home from deployment. My instant reaction was to say yes, it would. But that conversation got me thinking about reintegration. I hear it’s a pretty difficult…